I am @ my best being a "guys girl"
Boys night out @ Lounge33 with Mir Mirs in tow (as always) they are my family (fiance on my right):
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Femme Fatal....
I will NEVER understand the "girl dynamic". Being super close and comfortable around girls. Partly because I grew up around my brother and his guy friends and partly because girls were just plain cruel to me throughout my school years. 12 years of keeping girls out of my equation have made me a "guys girl". I am 100 percent a girly girl but I hold my own with my guy friends no problem. I am just one of the guys, like PJ from "My Boys". I can't help but relate to her completely. Except she does have one or two girlfriends that she is close to. I on the otherhand do not. I have been trying super hard in the last couple years, but I think I am too late. I have missed the boat. I need to learn to be content with the really amazing guy friends I have and stop worrying about girls. But being engaged has amped up the stress of having girlfriends aka:bridesmaids/maid of honor. I don't have a single girl I feel comfortable asking. They just aren't there for me. And they don't let me be there for them and they keep me at such a huge distance that I feel helpless in trying to make them close friends. I just wish they would grow up and let everyone be friends. I am so lucky to have my guy friends and my fiance, I mean "where do I start? I know I would be dead without you in heart". Girls are so different than guys (catty at times, condescending)...sometimes I think it is best to not have them close to me, then I don't have to worry about those issues. I know I have issues too, like no trust for girls at all, I don't want to be hurt. Even by my own mother....I can't be me...bc I will be shunned or something like that.
I am @ my best being a "guys girl"
Boys night out @ Lounge33 with Mir Mirs in tow (as always) they are my family (fiance on my right):
I am @ my best being a "guys girl"
Boys night out @ Lounge33 with Mir Mirs in tow (as always) they are my family (fiance on my right):
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would it be weird to you to have your buds up there with you? or if you have a close female cousin ask her to be your moh and see if matt would be okay only have a bm? so many ppl are doing more interesting weddings now, i wouldn't think twice about having boys on my side! i dont think youre too late to have a girl best bud, but i think its hard to develop one when she already has a bff. idk, its weird but i cant be friends with someone if they are already buddied up, like...i tried to re-establish friendships with some of my friends from high school, but too many years lapped and they already had close friends. so it was hard to try and become what we used to be, because they already had their circle of friends. and then you have to worry about being a 3rd wheel and its just too much. keep your boys and be happy that you have ppl that love you!
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