I love that I met the friends that I met. But I know after tonight I could probably never call them "friends" again. It's ridiculous. I just need to be saved again. I am floundering, and it's terrible. I need my Brittnizz, or Cuuhhriss. Or someone. I want him, but he doesn't want me. What's new right? Let's start with being cheated on and having a wedding called off via text message. To a guy who says he loves you, but only "cares about himself". Idk, maybe I am the one being selfish. Or maybe I deserve better than all of this. I know better than all of this.....but I never obey.
